truthfully, one of the most pathetic things is that
i dedicated this blog to you.
you had me wound up in every word you spoke and every breath you took
you had me intoxicated and i had never felt this way for another
according to you, you felt the same
you were "never going to get over me"
you loved me
the difference between us is that i
still love you
and i always will.
but you threw that away.
you threw me away for her
i know i ruined it but truthfully
you ruined it worse
never will i ever come back to you
and put myself through the abuse you dealt to me
calling me a whore probably made you feel like a man
but in all honesty, it made you seem weak
you have always been weak
but i am weaker
i let my lust jump ahead of my love
i dumped you for something stupid
and i immediately regretted it
you know i did.
just like you know that i will love you for a long time
you're nothing special to me anymore
you're just a man who betrayed me
i used to think i could love you forever
but in all honesty that love will turn into hate
it already is
how much of what you said to me were lies?
did you really find my body amazing? did you really think i was the most beautiful woman?
you said that she would never compare to me
why is it that you love her already?
why did you feel the need to demoralize me?
i had never treated you that horribly
truth is, i can't stop thinking of you
i get a sinking pit in my stomach every time i hear your name
every time i see your face in my head
every time i think of you telling her that you love her
i bet you wish her goodnight
whatever
i'm done with you
good bye
i can't stomach typing this
